It's a dramatic November...
At the beginning of the month, we were having Cardiology. It was super busy. With all the materials, ECG, lab analysis, treatment algorithm and doses, seriously it has been a while that i didn't get so busy. With Smoglov, i think it was a good training.
Then out of sudden, Ukrainian government announced a 3 weeks close down of all schools over Ukraine, give us a shock. No one expect holiday in the mid of semester. It was all because of swine flu! So currently i'm doing nothing basically "enjoying' my holiday. It's weird, but who doesn't want a free holiday. Lots of Malaysians flew back, just because of it. I was thinking it's because of the cheap ticket or afraid of the disease. Well, why not if you have extra money to fly back. :P
Meanwhile, i'm still struggling to get a ticket to go back KL on December for Christmas and new year. No place for TK flight to Singapore and Bangkok. Full!!! I might transit in Seoul. I hope i can. But i know i'm wasting the time to grab a cheap ticket. I'm still waiting for the announcement about replacement class or extend of this holiday. I'm in dilemma. Arrrgggggggg....
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very very extra ordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore
Love is more than just a game for two.
I love this version from Joss Stone.
When you have agreement from dad and mum,but you still need to consider of should i or shouldn't i...This is a really hard decision.I wish i just go spontenously,by now i already home or i already in London.But too bad this is me who likes to think too much:(
I thought i wouldn't tell her,in the end i told her everything.These are us,we have no secret among us.I love you all always,my dearest sister!!!Just wish that all of us doing good,and doing better and better:)Nothing can changed the relationship between us....
Yesterday,after so long,finally got a chance to chat with Khong Ming for few hours,like i told him,walao eh,we talked longer than couple did,luckily his wife knows me,or else,Khong Ming will be in big trouble.He was telling me 3 is good number,said so many idioms in chinese use 3,then i told him i am the 3rd at home,so i am the lucky one.
I know i am,as i always said!!!b Just because of PL wanna buy a camera,in the end i got the camera.Thanks mum for being so lovely,at first mum called me middle of the night,told me to go home,i really want to fly home by Uzbekistan airways tonight 9pm just now,but deep in my heart i know i shouldn't spend money like that,i wish i could see mum smile happily,i know she will,definetly she will smile unitl can't see her eyes.But i know i shouldn't,due to so many factors.
I told Wen about i am going home,she was quite upset,i know she will,if i were her,i will also be so sad.I didn't get to go home for so long.I wish i could be there for her in London,at the same time i know i got so many unread books to read.Yiyi is right,she said i should sit down and study when the first thing i told her i got 3 weeks holiday due to Swine flu.Then after that she passed the phone to mum,my initial intention was to call mum and dad ask them can i go to London,then i told mum,can't say too loud because Yiyi just told me that i need to stay back and study.I know she advise me for my goodness sake.
I miss home so much,i know i couldn't go back,but if i go UK,at least i got Siew Wen,i miss Ming Hui,Sook Har,Ivy and Vinvie so much.WHen some problems arise,only girl friends will understand one.But i know i couldn't be too emotional.Life still need to go on.
Today got a present from my housemate.So surprised and lovely,eventually i have forgotten about this culture,last time i used to buy them one thing at least whenever i go out without them.Now i have made into habit of not buying them things,have been such a long time since i last bought present for them.I am so sorry:(
While searching for tom yam paste,i found out mum sent me Lee Kum Kee"char siew" sauce,send me vegetable pickles,i know mum loves me so much and i know she missed me a lot.I wish i could hug her and sleep if i were home:(
words,just like a blade could inflict pain to the depth the speaker wishes.
today I learnt that the pen is, indeed mightier than the sword.
a bleeding wound I could clean and dress with the right medications.
but this... I really don't know how
the smell of you left me breathless, and yearning for more
Yesterday morning,before leaving to class,i called my mum,talking to her and telling her about camera and about his stories.Then mum suddenly said something really remind me that i need to study hard,she said you know how to earn money,so that wouldn't be a problem.She is right,i must know how to earn money,give to her,daddy,to my sisters and of course to my beloved brother.
Yesterday i did nothing praticularly,after class 12.13pm,went shopping with Zoey,took our own sweet time,girl's shopping,If Alvin will be there,fast fast,hehe.Then reach home around 1.45pm,then chatted with him though the phone,then book our winter trip-Something that i looking forward to,my christmas market trip,basically everywhere i go due to the christmas market.I know i gonna love them,but i am worry of unbearable cold and also feel a bit guilty.But i had a long long long chat with Alvin since he came back till the night.
It's really fun,it has been quite sometime we didn't do so,seating and talking and talking about everything,about relationship,about some point of views towards certain thing.One of our topic is educated better ot less educated is alright,both of us still think that educated is the best,compare his uncles and aunties....
At night,went to 2 open houses,one is for Deepavali,one is for Aidilfitri one,both of the food are superb,too full.Found out some surprise fact...Eventually got someone who doesn't want to go back home after finished studying here.I really i wish i could be like her,but am i dare,if i no need to worry about financial i will just go ahead,really.I will.I know it's only how many percentage for me to get something out there,but i still wanna give a try,i know it's not easy at all,but really i wish i could.
So many unachieved things that i supposed to achieve.....get myself a kick!!!
today just for a brief moment, I actually felt happy
no need to wake up early tomorrow and I will fall asleep comforted and safe in his arms.
i just got a news that shocked me to the core.
a friend's bf had committed suicide and died. she's my closest fren in form 5.
she thought that the break-up was mutual and then the next day he decided to jump off from 11th floor. *sigh*
i dont know what would i do if i were to be in this situation.
she's probably going to feel guilty for the rest of her life.
im trying to think of what to say to her to make her feel better.
haih. i wish i could be there for her. sigh.
