Need to be back in track....

I finally managed to tidy up my room except the wardrobe which is uttery messy. Yesterday i slept over at jing's place and make full use of her washing machine . Well embarrassed i could say because i didnt even remember to bring my own detergent. Jing like always very welcoming and never fall to make breakfast for me eventhought we r in rush. Thanks!

Poland trip was indeed a memorable one. I had alot of fun which causes me hard to concentrate in my soon arriving exams. Just a slight thought of it makes me dozzzz off..

Today me,ivy,jing and cheryl went to the invalid hospital to pay those old grannies a visit and showered them with flower since today is mother day. I am indeed happy ,only thing is it will be better if we able to convey ourselves better But somehow language is really a big barrier for my case.

Phoned home today, was overwhelmed by the fact that mummy have the intention of bringing me to china thru hongkong.

Sad thing is my passport pages left less than one pages . I hope the those walk in punya visa chop will be in a smaller size if not sigh i dont think i cant go china and meaning mummy and daddy wont join my hongkong trip which is kinda sad .

Grandma promised me that she will take care of herself and she will wait for me to come back to see her . SO happy. I think god makes my life surrounded by all the nice people. Let me have fun and feel safe with them around me. I know i am demanding because i wanted this to last forever . But in reality will it come true? i will non stop praying for it.

Mum wanted me to buy accessories for two of her god daughter . Sigh sigh ...am i supposed to feel jealous? well i dont think i feel jealous but just hope mummy still love me more than the god daughter of hers. This make me wonder whether i have been a very filial daughter to her, Issit that i didnt shower enough love for her. How am i supposed to show her that i sayang her alot? In what way should i let her know that she doesnt need god daughter to fill up her empty space . Ok i think maybe i dont have any sister so i always the center of attention as in being sayang by my whole family . Anyhow i should thanks the 2 god daughters of hers to make my mother happy all day long .:)

I shall not let jealousy over ride me ! oh god! how can this happen! never in my life i feel so leh! shit first time jealous of mummy sayanging other ppl's daughter alamak..am i  becoming more like a kid!! aduh aduh...cannot i must grow up!! jump jump jump..

Ok i grow up now..hehe..must be happy...~~