God knows how happy i am to received ur email:D He is the only one guy who i cant afford to lose and wont be selfish to show my love towards. Few days ago I wrote him one email when i am not in the mood ,knowing that he might be not be able to reply my email in time still i wrote one. Cox after up and down that i had been through, i know that i can surely trust him and of coz my siblings and my dearest mummy.
Today : he replied my email telling me this little thingie that i dont even know he knows. He told me that he knows i am not the type of ppl who will express my anger . How amazed i was because all this while i thought he doesnt really knows me as in the type of personality i am. I was thrilled:D
Of coz another line he wrotes which is the most precious thing that he willing to share with me. I didnt realised how He can open up to me in telling me all those mushy words but i do and really do appreciates it.
He told me that he always proud of telling ppl that he doesnt has much money but he is very rich because of having me and mum,anlan ,rojeam as family and he said of coz our relatives too:D SO he asked me to be positive and look at the brighter side and not forgetting to care for other ppl too.
I guess mummy is having her nice time at guanchow (china) now. Hope she will enjoy her trips to the max.
Ciao for now , another three pails of laundry await me. :S
link to the photos of my family:
http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y26/vinvie/family/?action=share&pic=1177707784.pbw
three days diet starting from today till sunday:D
I have to make sure i succeed in it.
so ppl out there dont try to tempt me into eating lol.
I had enough of food today .
My food expedition will continue on monday hooray...
i am sure i can do it. hip hip hooray...
hopefully this three days diet will help:D
if u know it what will ur respond be? happy or sorry
anyhow decision is make. so stop wondering.
The feeling of wanting to be at home by now keep flashing through my mind every now and then.
Period supposed to be coming within this two days .
Tomorrow still has classes and aerobic plus getting the done isic.
On monday we will be heading for the poland conference. AM i excited? or maybe abit worry? There is something bothering me yet i just cant figure it out.
To a certain extend i am kinda tired of the way i am living now .Nevermind i guess i just has to hope for a brighter day ahead.
My 5kg which i wanted to get rid didnt seems to succeed at all. Infact i am trying hard enough to atleast dont let the gap towards my target becomes wider.
Where is my motivation that i used to have and where is my determination ?
Talking about preparation for exams, sad to said but i didnt do much ...
Exercise ..yes i did but with the increase amount of food intakes which equivalent to zero.
Wonder how is dad and mum doing now? Its been so long since i last saw them. And its getting abit uncomfortable for me . And i keep on missing my grandma .Yeah i guess i should have call them more often but i guess i am just those kind who just sit there and lazy to do anything about me. Shall call it as serve myself right.
Hopefully they know that they r stil in my mind . Guess brothers they all are doing pretty well.
No matter what i should lift up my spirit, gain back my motivation and start to do something about my study . My favourite quote" there is never too late to start"....
:D
I feel i wanted to be a good doctor, i feel that if in this life if i cant happen to be rich to be able to help those poor, hopefully my skill can lessen their pain and making their life a better one. I hope i can be somebody to those poors and old ones. But then again, like always ppl will think i dream too much. This all requires some drive to actually make it happens so lets c how...
ok i am going to ivy's place soon to practice the presentation thingie:D
I suddenly remember this song that i used to like . Wah i think it was dated back to the day where i was still in secondary school. Remind me that i used to have a crush at that time which lasted till my Alevel time. How i started liking him ? haha..i guess it was because back there during the time i was kinda shy ,timid and low self esteem gal . He was regarded as the first one who supported me during basketball compettition. And somehow we r destine to get to know each other. Why i am saying this? it's because we arent fren when he was still studying in brunei and Only when i was in form 3 that time which was those time where MRic was still a trend for us .
SO it started like.....One fine day where as usual i logged in to Mric and somehow frens all didnt log in. SO while waiting for frens to log in i simply clicked on a nick named snoopy and i cant stop wondering how small the world is....!! i actually clicked him and there a whole new frenship was built. So while he was back in brunei for vacation i was so excited that i am going to meet him , yet being a timid and low self confidence me i didnt actually approached him . I saw him hanging out in school and never actually talked to him in real life .
Only the very day where i suddenly bring up my courage to ask him to drop some words in my autograph and haha...he actually did it .
I dont know what's on my mind that time, I think part of the reason i didnt try to show any signs of liking him is because he just broke up with her gf not long ago and was still not over her so i thinking this isnt the time for it. But god knows what he did..after thinking that i had no feeling for him ,he actually go after a gal which is in the same school as me. That day was the saddest day in my secondary life which is the day where he coupled with another gal. Thats make me think after all nobody will wait for u for so long and therefore i come out with a rule that if one is to really like someone he will wait no matter what and for those who willing to wait is the one who worth to be with and therefore toward every relationships that i had for the past few years i tested each and every guys. which is kinda bad !yeah i know! As for now i dont know whether i am still stick to that rule or not but all i know is i didnt get rid of the thought.
so this goes the song BOYZONE -everyday i love u
I think actually there is another song which also reminds me of him- BOYZONE- when u said nothing at all.:)
i shall add one of the song into my blog:)
oh know just not long ago i just make a resolution starting from today i will make sure i will be on bed maximum 11pm and sad to said by 11.05 i just finished drying up my hair. And now i am deciding whether to sleep and wake up early to study or vice versa.
I spend my time talking with ct ,eating,shower and downloading song.And it tooks me at least 5 hours to complete all this stuffs and few mins for me to blog plus few mins to wondering whether to take a rest first. But maybe i should take into consideration that my head is spinning and aching . Wondering what happen ? issit because of my inverted sleeping hours? or issit that i fall sick?
ok lah i think i have to rest first before turn worst. ciao for now~
Sunday is always the day i dread the most . But today is exceptional since monday is an holiday .
like usual i am hoping and trying to make each days a productive one which more or less not succeed.
I have this inborn talent to spend my time without having to step out of my unit. Jing they all salute me for this:S
Inside the toilet,2 pails of dirty clothes await me and here i am trying to escape from the fact that somehow in the end of the day i need to get it done.
Talking about food, this is the saddest thing , as u know i am a gal rite? amount of food intakes= fat accumulating at unwanted sites=depressing=alarming=warning sign= alert= control !!!Scrolling those movie stars websites just make me somewhat depressing. I wonder what kind of determination they have to make them able to not succumb to those saliva drooling food!! Or maybe their stomach is damn tiny. I know i shouldnt complaint much but then again i am a gal sure i will ! And i will continue to do so . Since i cant be that kind then atleast i can nag:D
Study study study...which equivalent to the sleeping mode. It wont takes me long to actually being knock out of conscious.May be even without knocking ,i already will be in my wonderland happily thinking that i am actually about to done with my study. Then the next second moodiness overide knowing that i am actually dreaming ! what a world! oh man!
Jing jing will be coming over to do the chinese cruller . Hopefully before she comes , i will be able to do some productive works.
Ok enough of my nonesense post. I Have to lift up my spirit . ciao~ for now...
For keyholder(s) to view the world beyond this door and For others to peep through the keyhole.
Trying to find things to blog about . But recently nothing pop out from my tofu brain:S
Anyway finally i registered as a member of the vox lol. Is pretty obvious hor:P
I will try to get some inspiration here for a better post . So for this very moment ..just excuse me and bear with me for a while.
Ok la...Atleast i made my first entry .Yahhoo..yaber double doo........
